Little Girl's Soul in a Woman's Body
	by Kimberley


	I went to him, the soul damaged and freyed
	The heart of a little girl...
	Yet not
	Searching for healing, acceptance, worth, and bright light
 
 	One more time the heart was vulnerable
	Once over the hesitation of him being male
	It was easy
	For he was the trusted
	He was His carrier of love
	His distributor of the Word
	He was trusted to carry the light to others
	He wore the garments
	He preached the perfect stories
	He wore the warm smile
	He offered his nurturing
	It was his calling he might say
 
 	There I was
	My soul in the palm of my hand
	Handing it to him to hold and nurture
	To aid and help to heal
	To be the hands of God in human form
	To be the light of God I had so longed for
	To heal me from my painful past
	To show me there is light and heart
	In a world I had come to know as a playground
	A playground for those who wanted to play dirty
	Surely, he would not harm me
	For he was doing His work as his calling
	He saw me as He did
	Through His eyes
 
 	He said all the right things to reassure me
	He showered me with comfort
	Calming eyes and smile
	Ever so subtly
	His goal to groom me
	Ever so slightly
	Moving in...
	Inside my mind, inside my soul...
	Until he had it all in his hands
	Everything about me I'd revealed
	My wounds, my pain, my insecurities...
	He held them in his hands...
 
 	I saw him...finally
	Really saw him...
	It was almost too late...
	He quickly turned around
	As if to shoot and kill me
	He'd already raped my soul...
	My spirit...my heart...
	And parts of my body
 
 	What was I left with?
	Already from a lifetime of wounds
	I now had to somehow recover from the worst of them
	Him...
 
 	How do I find faith again?
	How do I trust again?
	Will I?
	Who is there to comfort me now?
	Who dries my tears?
 
 	I've become so withdrawn now
	It's been much too long since I've been embraced...
	Where is God?
	Where is the light?
	Where is the justice?
	Where is my soul?
 
 	Though the road is dark...
	I must keep going to find the light..
	Keep searching for light and love...
	I must find my soul...
	A soul I've never really known..
	Jesus is my only way...
	I know that.
 
 	My courage must keep me alive now
	The courage provided from my God
	My Jesus
	My Savior
	 
	He will see me through
	He will bring me to the light...
	He will turn the evils thrust upon me
	He will turn them into good through me
	Somehow...
	 
	I must continue and not give up
	I must do it for Him
	I am His child
	He hasn't given up on me
	I am His child...
	The little girl inside this woman...I am.
	I will reclaim my soul...the soul of a little girl...
	The soul of the woman I am..
	And the beauty that lies within.
	
	
	
	
	
	
				

 

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